Here and out.

M.O.S.-ed today.
Was kinda fine.
I reached at about 9pm.
I only got in at 11.30.
After a very very long while.
Luckily we managed to pull a few strings,
Maryanne managed to get a favour from alicia.
She helped me get the plastic band thing.
Then i tried to get in.
But i dropped the thing,
luckily found it,
put it back on too tightly.
Nikki, Joyceh, Sam got in after awhile.
We got in together.
lingered inside for awhile.
Got out, got tapped on my shoulder.
Ailin gave me a hug, i realized she was crying.
Me and joyceh panicked, Sam and Nikki went back first.
We handled her for awhile. She was really upset.
Samantha and her were drunk.
It's green cos she was wearing green.
She looks like Ashvinder. haha.
Carried her around, took care of her.
Had no choice had to leave, left her with Ravinder.
Hope she's ok now. I <3 my Ailin! :D

I WANT PRETTY ANGRY. <3
It's green cos she was wearing green.
She looks like Ashvinder. haha.

Catch it, it's falling.

I wish these wounds wouldn't heal,
Then maybe you would know how i really feel.

I went to play badminton just now. I'm so tired and sore.
I'm gonna sleep. Good night.


RAFAEL NADAL IS THE FUGLIEST THING THE WORLD HAVE EVER SEEN.

Mary belongs to the words of a song.

I woke up at like 12.20pm. Hmmm... Kinda late, but it's ok. I guess i did some productive stuff.
I showered then i plucked my eyebrows. After that i developed a bad headache. So i guess i plucked to hard? AHA. Is that even possible?! Yeah, after i plucked my eyebrows i decided to make a brownie. So now it's done. It's really good! Very chewy on the outside and soft in the inside. AHAHA! so yeah. I'm gonna go play badminton at Yishun later. Quite productive, but i'll be so shagged. ugh. Bye

I'm calling out for you, you know i'm breaking down.

Man, I don't feel like playing wkw anymore. I'm so flat broke. I've no money. I cannot stand it when I've no money. It makes me feel weak and useless. ( no offence to the poor people though)
I still have to pay Karen like 18 for training, 10 for wkw. I think I owe my mum another 10 for that wild haircut. :(
I owe like about 50 bucks to numerous people. Fuck. My horoscope says I'll have money coming to me soon and you know what, I tried to be a good friend I withdrew 108 dollars for Krystal. Come to think of it, I don't think she'd do the same. Like fuck. I need cash. My monthly allowance is only gonna come after Vaunt. How?!
What's more the fucking TV doesn't want to show Amelie Mauresmo VS Megahn Shaughnessy!
They are showing Nalbandian VS Wawrinka! Wtf. Why can't they prioritize. It's so obvious those 2 is gonna play for a long time! They are so evenly matched! I can't stand it! Show a glimpse of Mauresmo bashing that teeny ass of Shaughnessy now!
God, I think I'm gonna cry.

They never noticed the despair in his eyes.

I miss you.
I just don't want to face it.
I can't take another.
I might die.

We stand together in rebellion.

Today, i feel like going against the world.

Firstly, i'd like to know why is smoking more socially unaccepted than drinking.
My reasons are so because, smoking and drinking is only legal to 18 and up!
shucks, my nose started bleeding.
Drinking like smoking is also considered a drug.
With Drinking addiction the person dies faster than a smoker who smokes 1 pack a day.
When people smoke, they go on a high. When people drink, they too go on a high, but drinking too much causes the person to get drunk resulting in failed senses. Whereas smoking only makes the person get high even after the whole pack.
I believe if one day, i picked up a ciggarette to smoke. You shouldn't stop me. Cos i don't believe you didn't drink. It's the fucking same.

Secondly, I'd like to know why Gays and Lesbians are not socially accepted as well.
What's wrong with a girl kissing another girl? What's wrong with a guy kissing another guy?
Absolutely nothing! They can have all the premarital sex they want and they aren't gonna cause any unwanted pregnancy. Whereas the normal heterosexual couples have to take so many precautionary measures in order not to get pregnant.
I have to admit that, gay sex does have a little bit of the HIV problem. But compare their problem to the normal heterosexual couples. The girl gives birth the guy leaves her. The girl doesn't know what to do, leave him to die. Or they go for an abortion! what on earth! LESBIAN CAN HAVE ALL THE SEX THEY WANT TO FULFIL THEIR DESIRES AND YET NO DANGER IS REALLY CAUSED ( except for LBD, but i dont want to get into that ) sorry i can't say the same for gays.

I'm so sad, I tore my shorts. My favourite pair of school shorts!! Then again, all of them are my favourite. I love school shorts. ( as in the old one ) they are so comfy! and i didnt like tear the part where when people who are fat bend down then that part rips! I tore the sides cos i accidentally tugged on it with my foot. I'm so sad. Gotta have to sew it up. OOOMPH. i can't sew.

Good times gonna come.

I guess, we could be like this forever.
Come to think of it, i like it like this.
I know, One day it's still gonna spill out.
But at least i guess, i know i'll still have you.
Or maybe not. I guess you should just,
let me feel good now.
I'll regret later. Somehow.

EEEE-YOUCH!

I've damn annoyed.
I've got 4 cuts on my finger cos i tried to break the shaver.
They sting a lot when water get's on it.
Plus, i have like, 12 mozzie bites.
Great.

and we are driving.

OMG. my nose is bleeding.
I'm stil having my mensus.
Damn, i'm gonna need a lot of iron.
I'm happy!
I got 12th in class!
Last year i was like, 20/30+.
Tomorrow, the class is going Marina
I'm kinda excited!
My first outing with this class.
Not sure who's going.
Call Krystal to go.
EHEHE.
I'm excited.
Excited.

Today i was supposed to do something. But i don't dare.
I'm so shy. :( HAHAHA

i really would, i really really would if you let me. This is driving me nuts. Nuts, NUTS.
I'VE GONE FUCKING NUTS. FUCKING NUTS. I'M GOING NUTS. I'M CRINGING. I'M NOT HERE. I'M NOT THERE I'M NOT ANYWHERE. NAFCVDSFZBUTS I'M GOING NUTS
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Dear _, sincerely me.

I guess, I no longer have no more words to explain how I feel. It's indescribable. There's so much i want to say, but i really don't know how to say it anymore. I'll just have to wait, till i get the chance. But even so, i may not know what i want to say. This feeling is just driving me nuts. I can't go on like this, How can i keep all in me. :(

I love, you.

I didn't go to school today. So i've been hanging around the house, dyed my hair, ate and washed my hair. My hair colour couldn't come out cos i've dark hair. But the whites are now, purple. Great. WONDERFUL. perfect. I think i'll dye it pink later.

SHIT! i dropped breadcrumbs into the keyboard of the laptop.

Graham colton band.

You make me wanna smoke a cigarette
You make me wanna be someone else
You make me wanna be somebody you would leave


Maybe, i can't take it anymore.
Maybe, i've done the irreversible.
Maybe, i've changed.
I guess, i did.
I hope you will see me in a different light.

I just want to bring you down so badly.

Today, school was ok. It started off, odd. I felt really out of place and missing. But it just got better as the day went on, Ronin and 987fm came to school. I couldn't give the letter to young to make a dedication. But i took the letter cut it and posted it into the person's locker. I don't know, I guess i should get some stuff done now, then i'll just be ok and not so, like that. Alright, wish me luck.

That you mean it, And i knew that you meant it.

My heart is hanging by a thread.
I'm breaking down.
I'm losing you.
Don't go.
I might not survive.
I'll get over you.
For sure.
But i want you now.
I'm gonna hold on.
Don't break it.

Graham Colton band

Are you far away in a new life?
Are you wearing the same dress that you wore when we met the first night?
Are you feeling it in a different time?
Are you telling the same jokes that you told me when we met the first time?
The first time how we slept with the light on
And the sun's coming up and we woke up on the floor
Everything that you feel that you can't describe
Why can't it be like the first week?
Am I far away in your thoughts sometimes?
Are you telling your friends that you can't live without him like we met the first time?
Do you lie awake and wonder why?
Is it always the same thing or is this just a new dream that's keeping you up at night
The first time how we slept with the light on
and the sun's comin up and we woke up on the floor
all the things that you feel that you can't describe
why can't it be like the first week?
I've been up and down your street calling your house
I won't wait up till you get home
i just maybe better off alone
The first time how we slept with the light on
and the sun's comin up and we woke up on the floor
all the things that you feel that I can't describe
why can't it be...
The first night how we slept with the light off
All the stars shine above
And all our clothes are on the floor
All the things that I feel that I can't describe
Why can't it be like the first week?



I don't even know why, i try.
You don't even care.
I don't matter.
Actually, i shouldn't. I'm nothing to you.
You are you, i am me.
We just are what you and me are.

i love you, i sort of do.
but i don't know how to put it to you.

duran duran

I miss you so much,
It's like you're so near and yet so far.
Why does it always feel this way.
I can't explain.
But, why.

My promises of a better day,
means, today.

THREADLESS MADE MY DAY!

Good day people. I had a sucky day in school and threadless made my day! I love threadless! Really! I was walking home and thinking bout all the unpleasant stuff, then i went home and my maid passed me a package. IT WAS FROM SKINNY CORP! yay! threadless, i love threadless! more shirts more shirts!

like faded jeans you won't give up.

I dreamed of horrible things.

I dreamed i fought with Mabel. Verbally.
I dreamed i fought with Kohila. Physically.
I can'te remember why i fought with Mabel,
but i remembered i fought with Kohila cos she
happily plonked herself on our recess table.
She talked as if she were Maryanne,
i got pissed i asked her to get lost.
She didn't want to,
i pulled her up.
I pushed her and punched her.

Jesus.
I dreamt of Merl as well.
But i'm not going to details,
Joyceh will start going crazy!

FINALLY! i just plucked out that little hair strand stuck in my bra which was aggravating my skin. Poor skin, hope you feel better!

I don't want to waste another day.

I never knew those has-beens could sing. Damn! I hate to say it, but i think their good.
Alright, good for those has-beens. Anyway, Ashley Parker Angel is not hot. If someone told me his name and i didn't know who he was, i would have mistaken her for a girl. No lying!

Anyway, spent the daying lazing around in a jewellery shop, hearing aunties gossip about people and try on jewellery and saying what's good and what's not, anorexia and bulimia, migration. Damn, they are so free.

Don't i try hard enough?

You threw my heart into the sea, I can't swim. Will you retrieve it for me?
I hope you don't drown, i can't save you. Will you risk your life for me?
I don't want you to die. Nevermind, just let me die.
When i die, will you mourn for me? I suppose you would.
For a week or two that's all right? I guess, i've never been that significant in your life.
Well, maybe. I wish you would die with me.

Don't you think you should put me out of my misery?

Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken
Don't I make you laugh
Should I try it harder
Why do you see right through me

I live, I breathe, I let it rain on meI sleep,
I wake, I try hard not to break
I crave, I love, I've waited long enough
I try as hard as I can

I laugh, I feel, I make believe it's real
I fall, I freeze, I pray down on my knees
I hope, I stand, I take it like a man
I try as hard as I can


Sigh, I've never liked someone so much like, __. It still breaks my heart that __ has absolutely no interest or whatsoever in having a conversation with me. Like, about a month or 2 __ still waved, now it's like, "i have no fucking idea who are so why don't you just fucking leave me alone." Hmmmm. Yeah, that's it.
Man, it's so screwed. I wish we could still talk, as friends. Or however you want it to be. I'll be good. Man, i've never loved anyone else half as much as i did you. My happiest moments were when i loved you. My lowest moments were also when i loved you. I wish we were still friends.
Damn, i just need you to know, no one is gonna fill that blank ever. You have no idea how big an impact you've made on me. It really changed me to be a better person. I swear. I'll love you for however long and i will be there for you whenever you need me.

She just gave a fucking sony vaio! I WANT! :(

OMG! Oprah Winfrey is like giving out so many things! Cos it's like christmas or smth, they are like her fave stuff and she's giving it out! She gave out like, an iPod, a blackberry, a cashmere sweater, a cord bellbottoms and they are about to give shoes. OMG. If i were rich and i had my own talk show, i wouldn't mind doing that! :D

Oooh baby, we ain't gonna live forever.

Here's the shit, was talking to mabel bout How i wanna get famous. I said, imma gonna take paris hilton's sex video and superimpose my face on to her body and put olivia wilde's face on to the guys body! Come to think of it wouldn't be nice for olivia. But hell, i wanna get famous! Mabel text me in the afternoon saying How hot alex was then i came up with a really brilliant idea How to get both of us famous without breaking a sweat! Find a video of an orgy and superimpose our faces on to the people! :D omg. We are so smart. Expect the video to be out by the end of the year folks!


Alex, i love you so much, i won't be like marissa. I wouldn't cheat on you in a million years! I swear.

Truthfully, I never exactly hated Maria Sharapova. I used to love her, the obsessive sort. But then slowly after awhile i got over her cos i thought she was getting TOO popular. I couldn't take it. It was so annoying for everyone to like the same person. But I know there's only so many players and i guess at least 3billion tennis fans in the world. I like Sveta.

SEEYA!

Easily swayed by the motivated.

Oh man! Charlize Theron is a PETA activist!

Anyway, i just wanted to wish my mum,

Happy Mothers day! Can't live without you, mummy! ( no pun intended )

My mum went on a cruise with her 3 other mother friends. So yeah.. i guess they are gonna have a good time. Hope my mum picks up gambling so she won't be so picky when i gamble with my friends! Yeah.. Gambling's good. Not.

Someone's calling, wonder who could be calling at this hour. Freaky.

Anyway, i was having dinner just now and i was feeling really bored. My dad kept talking bout his life. How he had to scrimp and save to live like this now. As boring as it was, it was quite enlightening how they went through so much just to make a better living for us. They put us first and they didn't really matter about themselves.
But, that isn't the point. I text Tanya something really random.

I texted her "Eh, i saw Felicia Chin come out from a lesbian club!"

She replied, "Omg! where?! Who you with now?

Then i replied, "She was with a bung! and the bung was holding her waist. and she put her head on the bung's shoulder!"

She replied," OMG! HOT NEWS MAN! "

and i replied," Happy mother's day dear Tanya! I was just kidding! :D"

and finally she replied," Huh? Idiot you! HAHA! "

What's funny is that i text her at like 9pm. That's the time when people are entering a club rather than exiting one. HAHA. i'm so funny.
I hope you homophobes don't think this is defamatory towards Felicia Chin. It's just a joke. Plus i
m a fan of Felicia Chin and Tanya too! And many, i mean many, really many, other people in school! I'm sure we wouldn't mind if she was though. ;)

And we don't like the cock!

Alright, i was supposed to update earlier on. But i had dinner, i watched tv, watched Mischa Barton and Evan Rachel Wood getting it on! YEAH! But, they weren't getting it on. I was just watching Once and Again. It's so addictive! I wonder what ever happened to Evan Rachel Wood.

Anyway, this morning Tanya and I went to town and we saw 2 hot chicks! I couldn't help staring they were sharing like ice kachang. then later one bought ice cream ice kachang. then they went to buy mixed rice. I really couldn't help staring. They looked as if they screwed each other before, no they look like they are screwing each other. Ok, that's mega wrong la. But my sentiments. Then afterwards Tanya left with her BF i went with Fer Lai and Elmo. We just hung around spending money on the tong tong thing. Then i decided to go back. Then i saw this really really hot Ang moh girl. then i turned back to look at Elmo and she instantly knew i was looking at her. I didn't even know i like slowed down to look at her. Omg. I didnt even know!

I've been checking out a lot of ang moh chicks recently. It's so annoying. Ugh. and Tia and Xuewen and Yimei kept teasing me about the one at griller and how i tried to... HAHA. not gonna say!

i cant blog now. i'm eating ice cream. BRB

First of all. I've a paper tomorrow at 8 and it's 15 to 1. I'm still awake researching on, Once and again. Evan Rachel Wood is so adorable! Mischa Barton is different, but still pretty! The picture of the 2 of the smooching is so cute! They are so adorable! And according to imdb.com Evan Rachel Wood was only 13 when she smooched Mischa Barton and Mischa was 14. Well, there's according to my calculations. SO CUTE! i'm gonna die!
And i'm also watching a punk'd video of Mischa Barton. It's hilarious!

Rush, rush. Hurry, hurry!

I wasted the day, as usual. I'm bored. My nose is spicy. ( really, it's hot ) It's kinda stingy you know. Tia called me and i sort of professed my love for Katherine McPhee. Highly unnecessary though, i must say. I was a really jealous poot, i kept telling Tia about Katherine that i think she started to find me annoying then we talked about Paula Abdul and how she gave Katherine that look. Gave me the feeling that Paula Abdul wanted to get into Katherine's pants. That sparked a little outrage in me, because Katherine's my girl and i don't want anyone in her pants 'cept for, you know.
I have no idea why i'm writing all this bullshit down. I'm so bored. Really.

Clay Aiken has nipples like a pyramid. Eeeewe.

'Out!

I want to be famous just to get with you! ♥

Ah! Wonderful! Finally! After waiting slightly over 24minutes the laptop finally loaded the posting page. Anyway, today has been rather good. The paper was normal. I felt it was a "can-do" paper.. so yeahh.. wish me luck for all these dumb crap.

On a lighter note, i did a lot of catching up. Or more likely, i'm doing some catching up. It's been a long time since we heard from people like, Kahlen Rondot, Naima Mora, Kim Stolz, Christina Murphy, Kyle Kavanaugh. Yeah.. those people! Not people from school who are so hard up their asses these days. Must be the 'o's. I know i won't be like that when my time comes. I don't give 2 hoots! I love celebrity gossip.

I must add that i'm addicted to Katherine Mcphee! Her rendition of Black horse in a cherry tree was better than the original singer Kt Tunstall! In my opinion that is. Ahhh.. Katherine Mcphee. She's so sexy. :D Can't say the same for miss Phee. But wait, that's 2 entirely different stories!

I've got 3 mozzie bites on my left elbow. Perfect. I spent the entire day, guess where! No, not the drain you idiot! My room! Scary huh! When i sleep i'm gonna get another 30 mozzie bites. I've got Social studies tomorrow. I'm so scared! ( yeah right! ) Ah fuck. It's so fucking cold in my room, my nose is working up.

Somehow, i can't explain how i feel when i'm not with you. It's this feeling which gets to me all the time. As much as i hate it, i really can't fight it. I never thought that i would have this feelings for you, but it just seems to have surged through my veins already. I can't say that i want you or anything because that isn't how i feel about you. I can't say I love you, because i'm not sure of that yet. I don't know why, but i have this strong feeling about you. Our difference are big, but i'm not going to let that stand in the way of you and me. I just want you to know, I'll be there for you. If you ever need me.

Hey, i ordered my shirt! show you
people the designs! It's so hot! :D





Alright, I'm pissed.
I wrote my post and i put up my pictures and the damn thing got closed.
FUCK.

anyway, i'll write again.
Someone sent me my first fan mail! :D Yay, it's from a very very sweet girl. She's nice and very kind and i love her soooo much! But i won't reveal her identity cos it will be very embarassing and teachers read blogs.. So yeahh. Enjoy!

peace out. we got chicks to check out!

First of all, i want to make a shout out to a good ol' friend of mine.

Maryanne!

Happy birthday you slut! Though we haven't exactly been really there for each other,
i know you get what i'm tryna say. It's been quite a while and we've been buddies
for years. So i just want to wish you, all the best in your future endeavours and to be
happy with what you've got. ( hints )

they killed the blogging star.

ahhh... How dreamy... I think of myself as a star. A blogging star... HAHA.

My sister has agreed to get me the " i <3 NY " shirt! :D but then when i look at it closely. i realized it's different for the regular " i <3 NY " shirts. the heart is filled with, " i've never been to " HAHA :D it's so cute! i hope no singaporean finds out about this zany site so that. i'll be unique! :D ahh yes.. i'm retarded. Eh i still want the t-mobile sidekick 3. but my mum says i'm crazy. boohoo. AH FUCK IT. I'M DYING.

btw, someone on friendster called "stc's B N B " added me. HAHA. i knew i was always a babe. ;) the b's stand for butch and babe. gross.

Technology killed the gwen.

My desktop hates me. When i turn on the switch it hibernates! When my sister turns i on it works properly! When i want to use it, it bloody hangs on me! Everything around me is so fucking bitchy ( people included. ) ! Oh god oh god, i want to buy a powerbook. I torn between, a g5 powerbook, t-mobile sidekick 3 ( individualism is so fucking expensive! ), sony ericson's w800i. The price of the powerbook can so get me 2 sidekicks inclusive of shipping and insurance!
So torn, so torn. I always have money woes. Must be all the materialistic desires. Oh wells..

Leave your life in the hands of a juggling clown.

I got the oc season2 on dvd! :D yay!
I miss alex so much. Sigh. I love alex.